Warning: This is gonna be long. Lots of bitching to do.
Blogger is so screwed up. I've been trying to post photos up for a few days already. Unfortunately, all I've gotten was lots of waiting and disappointment with Hello and Blogger's image uploader. Forget it! In the end, I uploaded my photos to my dusty-old-cob-webbed-filled photobucket and managed to put up photos that I longed to show. *huge sigh of relief*
Anyway, the final presentation was over on Thursday. Lots happened and I was kinda struggling to deal with the emotion mix. Come to that later. Photos first!
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National Day 2006
Bet you guys were either out watching fireworks, having dinner, staying home tuned in to NDP on tv or watching NDP live. Guess what? I spent my country's birthday in Ngee Ann Polyfuckingtechnic.
But it was alright cos I had my friends with me.
We had no means of lunching in school cos it was a public holiday and only ill-fated students like us needed to go back for projects. So we ordered home school delivery from Brinda's, a restaurant that serves indian cuisines. Yum!
It wasn't fun taking photos of people's arses. I ran ahead of them and they posed this for me. Haha. Cooperative leh.
The path to the collection point. Lots of construction going on in school now.
I believe a part of my school fees constitutes this.
There! Brinda's right at your door step. I was kinda expecting them to come in motorbikes, but they got quite a lot of orders so the box thingy at the back of motorbike couldn't fit.
5 packets for 5 hungry people. The others opted for Mac instead. Boring...
I was trying to take a photo of the delivery man. He thought I wanted to take the van so he wanted to step away. I told him to pose, and he did. Haha so cooperative! Nice smile you've got there, mister.
The rice is probably 4 times more than the muslim stall I always buy from. And the chicken is buried in the rice. Plus, a coleslaw and pumpkin dunnowhat as side dishes and curry sauce! *drools* Just $5.00 for this. And I couldn't finish my food. =(
Syahriah ate with her hands. Felt so at home wor. I wanted to eat with my hands too (wonderful experience), but nails too long. Consequences: yellow nails.
We worked on our projects till about 8pm before we headed home. I reached home and ate instant noodles. There! That's my national day celebration for you. Pathetic.
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Alright. Back to the previous topic on the struggle with emotion mix.
Fun, sadness, anger, panic, struggle, confusion, theurgetoslaphermouthshut, all kinds of emotions I felt during the project period. I experienced thurgetoslaphermouthshut more than any other emotions. It all started with a really uncooperative group member who is our shitty group leader, unfortunately.
Why didn't we assign another of us to be group leader, you ask?
Get to that later. Introduction first.
Initially, this girl was sitting alone in class on the first day of the semester. We kindly asked her to join us (Ok. The US here refers to Su Lian, Syahriah and me.) cos the others were in their groups already. I felt bad about leaving someone out, so yeah, I 引狼入室 (invited the wolf into our comfort zone). Or you can say she's a 披着羊皮的狼 (wolf in sheep's skin). In order not to feel bad, I made my friends (and me!) suffer. Sorry.
This semester actually started off easy. The normal assignments and presentations were part and parcel of poly life. However, this semester had this integrated project that kinda sucked most of our energy and caused pimple outbreak and the darkening of my eye area.
Things were going well among us and the new girl. We talked and laughed about everything.
Everything went well until the week after our post-test break. We learnt that our leader got committed to something else outside school and sorta drifted away from the group. And suddenly, she became bossy and stepped all over us. She assigned us tasks that we couldn't handle alone while she stole the credits.
This went on for the next few weeks. Tasks were assigned. We did our job. She made new changes. We had to start all over. She made changes again. We started all over again. She worked independently instead of cooperating with us. She made decisions without discussing with us. More of a one-man-show for her except that behind this one-man thingy, 3 other people are slogging away to produce results. What does she do? Make more changes without our consent and claimed it as hers. She enjoyed pushing responsibilities too.
Oh yes, about why we didn't assign another leader is because She insisted that
she be leader for all modules la. Then easier.
We thought that Leader was just a name and she really wanted to eased things for us because no matter what, the group works TOGETHER, not FOR the leader. But hell no! She made use of this name to be in total control.
I'm the kind of person who voice out whatever I'm not happy with. But my 2 other friends choose to keep quiet. Or maybe they just don't bother arguing with her. So the one arguing with her will be me alone. Completely alone. No backup at all. But I could take it. I'm pissed, I say it. Not keep it inside. At least that makes our lives easier when she knows that we're not happy.
Then she started to make things difficult for my friends instead of me. I think somehow she knew that I wasn't a person she could mess with.
There were a few times when tutors asked her questions and she couldn't answer, she pointed her finger at either of us and expected us to clean her ass.
Tutor 1: So how's your website coming along?
She: *points finger at me* It's with her. (continues msn-ing)
The tutor then came to ask me about it loh. Fuck!
Another time, the tutor asked her something about a report we did.
Tutor2: Why did you include [insert a computer term] into your diagram?
She: *points finger at Su Lian* Erm... That's Su Lian's part.
Big fuck!
**At this point of time, I'm fuming. Baby, sorry if I used too many fucks in this post. Too angry you see?**
I told myself so many times to forget about it, it's just a small problem. But no! She was going overboard. For the presentation, she assigned the 3 of us to present on the powerpoint slides that took barely 10 minutes out of the specified 30 minutes. The last 20 minutes of the presentation, she single-handedly constructed a live demonstration of our website. Not a big deal, you think? The website was created by she and me as well! But she wanted to do the demonstration on her own, hinting to us that she did the website alone and she deserved the credit! She even mentioned "I presented de website (which is done by mi!!!)" in her blog.
Fucking pissed! The worst thing was just 10 minutes before our presentation, the 3 of us were busy going through the powerpoint slides and She offered to help us fill up our peer evaluation forms that looks like this.
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After a while, she filled up the forms and covered them faced down and told us she graded for us already. I was shocked at first cos the evaluation was supposed to be done by OURselves. But I thought maybe she gave us all the same grades, which was fair, so I didn't ask her about it.
While we proceeded to the waiting room before our presentation, we went through last minute rehearsal and stuff. Then I saw our forms, still faced down, in front of her and I caught a glimpse of it from the back and saw this.
Feel absolutely free to enlarge this picture to see what She did!
If you guys understand the meaning of peer evaluation (which actually means I evaluate my peers on MY own, not letting a 3rd party evaluate on my behalf), what She did was seriously an awful act of dishonesty and fuckery! Instead of just grading us on her own form, she graded FOR us on OUR forms! She didn't even let us see or touch our own evaluation forms! What fucking shit is this? I was super pissed when I saw it. She was still trying to cover the dirty work she just did to us! Luckily I saw it! I sms-ed Syahriah and Su Lian while She was going through the presentation with them. When they saw the sms, they were confused at first. I explained everything I saw to them after the presentation and man, they were furious! We stayed back (She left the very minute we ended) and decided to report this to our tutors, hoping that justice can be made. We told our advisor and he said he would let the other tutors know. We even submitted a new evaluation formed that WE filled up on OUR own.
Syahriah was like "I never see people help me evaluate before loh" and Su Lian was really pissed lah. We were so angry I swear I could kill someone! It wasn't as if we didn't do our work! We did our part and contributed as much as She did and we definitely deserved getting a better grade. We don't deserve getting a B after all the effort put into the website which of course was changed by Her to make it look as if She did the website.
All these bitching may sound confusing to some people but if She is reading this right now, I've got something to say.
FUCK YOU BITCH! I HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL FOR STEALING OUR CREDITS!
After one big round, I’m back to choosing a Nokia. Hmmm reviews say the E71 is the best business phone ever created by Nokia. But I’m getting the improved version instead, the mighty E72.
Alright. I haven’t got it yet but I’m pretty sure I would like it. It would take some getting used to with the qwerty but Vanessa assured it’s gonna be really easy to get used to it. :)
And what’s even better? Surfing the net is even faster with this phone, according to reviews. Plus, the navigation key acts as a scroll. I can just swipe my thumb up and down to view the pages. Shiokness!
I’m pretty excited cos this phone isn’t expensive at all and my plan has ended. Woohoo! I just gotta arrange a time to get it.
Now my dilemma is which colour should I get? The black will never go wrong but the Topaz Brown looks really pretty. But the problem is, I’m gonna g-mask the phone after I get it so I hope the designs of the mask wouldn’t clash with the overall colour.
Ok now I really can’t wait to get it.
